can't understand what i can not see
i get lost in the maze of human subtlety
patterns that i can't decode
expressions inflections connections i cannot know
there's a glitch inside my brain, born in chains
membrane is clinically insane
how long can i play this game
the rules aren't fair, lvl 99
i can't attain

even if i try nothing i can do
becuase you see me but i can;t see you
everythings, so cryptic looks like a rune
log in cuz reality salts up the wound

so i substitue my own
the whole world sucks, no way i can call it home
as a gaurdian i'll stand
ruler of a world where there is no bad in the land
and everyone's in perfect health
that way no one can hate themselves
but it's all to no avail
the rope still swings even with my feet in air

and i try so hard
and i try my best
but i always will
end up depressed
there's no way
i can pass this test
and i'm so sick of all this stress
and the sun won't rise
You can say good bye
I was born this way?
oh why god why?
they're ignoring me
they're ensuring me
but i can't know for sure cause i cannot see

cause the vacuum cuts so deep
the blood flows red splatter paint across the sink
the bottle on its side
risperidone pill last will know i wanted to die
heaven and hell congeal
how long can i enjoy what i cannot feel
death grips round my leg
why am i so messed up? I just wanna fade away!