something metaphysical has put me in my place not unlike a ritual purify the space its got me goin over and i can't escape i've been looking toward something to replace

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I thought you would live forever never seemed better, you always stayed young had your fun I never figured you would kick the bucket, you really stuck it, right where it always hurts plunged into the dirt I thought I would do this for a long long time but it seems that even you must die and I'm not at your funeral I'm already moving on, writing different songs but that doesn't mean I don't care! but that doesn't mean I don't care! I care too much! I care too little! I care that I'm not there to see your body, brittle from a long, long, long, long, beautiful life and if that's where it all ends then whats the point? we live our life in a chain of disjoints thinking, feeling, hoping, believing that it just might work out! I use to think it was beautiful but now I'm not so sure and when I hear your loving whispers I care when you skip the words that I wrote down for you to say I worked on this script night and day but no reads their lines! see it, feel it, hear it in the air there's something moving back and forth but i don't know what where i need to find it, destroy it, can no longer ignore it i figure it would work for me but now i wanna kill it with my bare hands, rip it all apart, send it back to the start and I swear all of this is straight from the heart because I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it I hate it all so much! I wish I could do everything over but I wont get that chance so I'll stick with what I got.

and i see you fall through my fingers, and i linger i know you're by yourself, because you made it this far, without anyone else which is so strange, you came, so far, can you please explain, how you, got through, with out that occurance, by chance, now you want, a glance through the door, well i'll walk through with you and i know it's tough, it never ever seems like you're good enough, but it's the same for me, and speaking of anxiety, the people all around you watch and wait to see, what will unfold on the screen, but you just want to spend time, unwind cut ties, change lives and play rough, brush up, get unstuck from under the rock you still find above you, still tries to crush you, wont let ever let you go, but you must know, somethings just don't go, the way you'd hope so, but you still have to try you just have to be the one to take the first step you keep waiting on something you can never expect depressed because none of your dreams come true, but if you're just sittin there then they never ever going to i do get what your going through, so please believe me i have some of the problems too, so don't just leave me stranded in the dark, doing all the work, feeling jerked around for a blue sweatshirt I need to open up I need to open up I need to open up but it's harder then I thought it would be [loop]harder, then i thought, it would be[/loop]

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As i walk along, I am on my lonesome in a deserted part of town there is no one, least no one conscious but i must push on, yeah i must push on and when the ocean comes to knock me down i'll hold my ground oh, and when the water comes to knock me out I'll scream and shout, but i wont let up Now, what i'm a gonna do, i've got this thing to fix, a problem to be solved, and i should do it quick, but in the longer run i guess i could just wait i mean i could slow down, exactly how long do you have to work to change the world? to get the girl? to be the hero? to avoid making simple mistakes? to change your fate? to make a difference? Now, to be with all this time, to be with all this space expression on face is confused what, could i possibly do with all the things that you have put inside this giant playground? Now, to be with all this time to be with all this space i need to find my place in side this life, I don't know what to do but i will make it through because i see it's all a play ground you told me that it was all for naught that's what i thought but now i got it everything you told me was a lie, but that's alright, because i got it Now, not about feeling down not about feeling good it's all about what's under stood and if you do just what you can and disregard the plan you'll find it's all a playground

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